I was curious, so I Googled the book from the ad in the
previous post, "Emunah: A Refresher Course." I found a website for
the "Ani Maamin Project," which, though not well-developed, led me to
a couple of videos on Youtube of shiurim given by the book's author. I think
that the author, Rabbi Dovid Sapirman, coincidentally is one of the people I
was sent to talk to when I started asking awkward questions in high school.
I spent a number of
afternoons over the course of few months talking with him, and he gave me some
of his tapes to listen to. I remember being impressed by some of what he said,
like prophecies that had come true and his argument that we see an Oral Torah
is necessary, because even the Kaarites, who reject TSBP, had to use TSBP's
definition of tefillin because the Torah's description in inadequate. They just wore their black leather boxes between
their eyes, because they interpreted "between your eyes" literally.
Ha ha, those silly Kaarites, not realizing how foolish they looked using TSPB's
interpretation of what tefillin are, and then wearing them wrong. (It's too bad
for his argument that Kaarites don't actually wear teffillin at all.) Other
stuff I was less impressed with, like his insistence on an unbroken mesorah
despite the incidents in Navi of the Torah being rediscovered, or his failure
to address what was then my central question, the circularity of knowing that
Hashem was good because the Torah said He was good, and trusting what the Torah
said was reliable because it was written by Hashem, Who is good.
I watched a couple of his videos, and the arguments that I
was impressed with almost twenty years ago don't hold up.
His shiur was an hour of empty rhetoric, stories to make the
audience feel good about themselves, the never addressed assumption that
traditional Jewish sources are authoritative, and subtle and not-so-subtle
implications that we are right and everyone else is wrong. For instance, he spoke
about various trends that were once popular but now (at least according to him)
seem silly. He specifically spoke about idolatry (getting the way that the
ancients thought of idols completely wrong), and more or less outright said that the same way
we think of idol worship as silly, in the future people will think that accepting
what science has to say about evolution and the development of the world is
silly. He also told a lovely story about a Charieidi man's encounter with a
kibbutznik with long hair who Rabbi Sapirman described as "safik chaya
safik beheima, safik ish safik isha."
Despite the painfulness of some parts of the shiur, it was
interesting to be transported back into that world and mindset again.
Rabbi Sapirman's video led me to a shiur by someone from
Aish on the same subject. His was better, in that he made actual arguments,
albeit never explicitly and all in the context of stories about celebrities
he'd met. They were all the bad arguments we've all heard before. Pascal's
Wager, the Kuzari Argument, equating the claim of millions of people witnessing
matan torah (which comes from the Torah, a single source) with the claim of
millions of people witnessing WWII (which comes from millions of sources such
as letters, diaries, newspaper and newsreel accounts, and official documents),
and so on.
This got me thinking. I should write an anti-kiruv book. Not
a book against kiruv, but a book that is the opposite of kiruv books (does
anyone have a better way to say that than, "anti-kiruv?). A book that works
in the opposite direction of most kiruv books, and systematically goes from Orthodox
Judaism to Judaism to God/religion in general to pragmatic arguments for being
religious, and shows at each level why it is reasonable to be skeptical. The
point wouldn't be to convince people to not be frum, but to show people who
were skeptical that they're not crazy, that they're not just evil kofrim controlled by their
taivos, and that what they've been thinking is reasonable and defensible.
Then I realized that a book like that could never get
published. The potential audience is tiny. And even if it could get published,
I'd have to publish under a pseudonym or risk my acceptance in my community.
While no one in my community cares what anyone thinks, I suspect that they
might object to someone writing a book that attacks their whole belief system.
Using a pseudonym means no promoting the book, which again means that it could
never get published.
I could do it as a blog, one where I would write the book
and post it section by section as I go along. The question there is whether
it's worth the effort. Would anyone read it? Maybe if it was publicized on
Facebook, but there I run into the anonymity problem again.
Thoughts?